‘Feeling of guilt sweeps through my body,’; Sutapa Sikdar remembers Irrfan Khan 4 years after his death

Bollywood Actor Irrfan Khan passed away on 29th April 2020. On May 2nd, his wife film maker Sutapa Sikdar made a post on Instagram imagining a conversation they would have had on the recently released ‘Amar Singh Chamkila.’ 

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Sutapa expressed feeling a sense of guilt at 24 years having passed since his death. “It’s 4 years three days since Irrfan left me. Four years? A feeling of guilt sweeps through my body. 4 years we have LIVED without him added with sadness, fear, hopelessness and severe helplessness. And then I thought but still I lived with him more. I knew him since 1984 so that makes it 36 years of knowing him more and definitely till I die I would have spent more time with him then without him. 4 years we have LIVED without him added with sadness, fear, hopelessness and severe helplessness. And then I thought but still I lived with him more. I knew him since 1984 so that makes it 36 years of knowing him more and definitely till I die I would have spent more time with him then without him. And then I thought if he was with me physically in 2024 what would have been our conversation like? Because that’s the most I miss. He would be coming home mostly in 2024 straight from the shoot and would be petting our cat and reading,” Sutapa’s post mentioned. 

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